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Introductions
Dec. 24th, 2017 01:33 pmSo here we are. It's time to admit that I'm struggling with my life. But before we get into details, let's start with who I am.
Outwardly, you'd think my life is good. I have a good job, two wonderful children, a nice house and all the things that would make people think I'm happy. But I'm not, for two main reasons: firstly, my marriage is on the verge of breakdown and secondly I struggle with my mental health.
These two are of course related - I'm not sure how to describe my mental health issues yet, but my anger is what my wife hates the most. It makes her scared to be around me, and so she's very close to leaving - which would of course mean the children go as well. I'm also an extremely proud person, so I haven't asked for the help I need with this yet. Hopefully that will change.
Even writing this anonymous blog is hard for me. I'm scared someone will relate it to my real identity. But I'm going to try, because writing this stuff down might help me, and it might help someone else in the future.
Outwardly, you'd think my life is good. I have a good job, two wonderful children, a nice house and all the things that would make people think I'm happy. But I'm not, for two main reasons: firstly, my marriage is on the verge of breakdown and secondly I struggle with my mental health.
These two are of course related - I'm not sure how to describe my mental health issues yet, but my anger is what my wife hates the most. It makes her scared to be around me, and so she's very close to leaving - which would of course mean the children go as well. I'm also an extremely proud person, so I haven't asked for the help I need with this yet. Hopefully that will change.
Even writing this anonymous blog is hard for me. I'm scared someone will relate it to my real identity. But I'm going to try, because writing this stuff down might help me, and it might help someone else in the future.
