A week on

[astrugglingfather]

So, a week further on, how's it gone?

Some good bits, some bad bits. The good bits:

• Mostly had a happy time over Christmas. One bad bit on Christmas day when I panicked about the safety of the children, one little breakdown when at the in-laws when I was sure nobody wanted me there, but mostly a relaxing time.
• I've arranged to see a counsellor to start getting some professional help with my issues. First appointment is next week.

The bad bits:

• A bad day on New Year's Eve. Anxiety and stress got on top of me, a lot of crying and anger.
• I'm still paranoid that my wife is actively leaving me. It's ruining my sleep (hence why this is being written at 1am). She says she's not, but... something tells me she is. All I can do is to try to be the best person I can and hope that's enough to save my marriage.